Moving On

Well, I missed February. Oh, I was on the planet. I was even awake and alert for most of the time, but I still somehow missed it.

So, here we are in March and life is moving on. I continue to work on my next manuscript, although I have to admit the time I have spent on it in recent days has been negligible. There have been some very rough bumps in my life's road since the beginning of the year, but, with God's grace and love, I will survive.

I am ramping up my attempts to find places at which to speak; either about India or about the places where God is leading me. And He is leading me into some unknown waters. I can see nothing but the small circle of light at my feet, but then, that's really all He intends us to see. Psalm 119:105 tells us that His Word is lamp to our feet and a light to our path. We are brightly illuminated right where we stand and a short distance up the path in front of us, but we still cannot see very far ahead. Most of the time, I don't want to know what's in store. I think it would scare me more than not knowing.

But lately, I've been battling. Why has nothing changed? What am I doing/not doing? Is it even me? God are you here?

Of course He's here. He's always here. I know that. I have to believe that I know that.

And so I continue, like Job, to question and yet still believe. I am no danger of discarding my faith. I am in no danger of running away from the One who loves me and protects me above all others. I've been simply sitting still for awhile and now it's time to get up and simply move forward. To where? I have no idea. But He is holding the lamp and lighting the area around my feet. I will not fall because He knows where all the drop-offs are and will steer me around them safely.

I will likely get rained on some more. I will still question "what's next" or "what now" but I will also hold fast to the simple truth that "what's next" is what's in His plan. I will go, He will lead.

It's time to move. Forward. In a small circle of light that will never be extinguished or diminished.